Testing Me

It is very hot here today. I think the temp. is going to reach nearly 100 degrees outside. Rian is taking a nap and then we are heading to the lake to cool off. We have now entered a new stage in rian's life, she won't sleep in her bed. She is officially out of the crib and onto the floor. I can't imagine that it being comfortable but she is still sleeping through the night. Her terrible two's are setting in as well. She is always testing me to see if I will follow through with what I told her not to do. When I do get to her level and talk to her about her behavior she laughs at me telling me she knows exactly what I am talking about. I know she is going to be a tough one and that we are going to have to stick to our guns with her. It will be a challenge and I'm sure we will never have a dull moment with her.

Yesterday we went to the gym and Rian cried the entire hour that I worked out. I really would of thought that she would of stopped in that amount of time. It felt good to me to get back to the gym and release some tension. I am starting a new bible study called the weigh-down workshop and am looking forward to it.

I am so much enjoying my summer home with Rian. I feel I would miss out on my job. It is something that i am really struggling with and need to pray about. In a way I know that Rian will be grown and out of the house in less than 18 years and the years fly by because she is already almost 2. I feel that your kids are only home for a short time and I am missing out on it. I can always go back to work and make money but I can never go back on the time I missing out on with her.